Self spectator

Silently, I merely watch.
The cocoon, struggling to hatch.
Inside the shell confusions entwine.
Yearning for freedom and bright sunshine.

I hover in pleasure
I suffer in fear.
I swing on moods.
Nothing endures, mind again broods.

In pleasure not totally present.
 In fear not totally absent.
  For a part of me, in spectator, it resides.
 Despises duality, hopes, in unison it resides.